First post in a while
Well, I haven’t posted in ages. My computer is still down so my only internet access is from work, on what might be the slowest connection in the world.
My situation, if you’re interested, is still pretty much the same. I have only so far applied to one thing since finishing my masters; a mathematical physics PhD in Nottingham. I went to have a look at the place on their PG open day on Wednesday; it’s a nice place but I get the feeling I don’t know enough stuff about stuff to do the stuff. I shall look at other options when I feel up to it. Preferably of course a PhD; the thought of doing any sort of career literally gives me the shivers.
It occurs to me that I have been rather depressed since… well about a year ago now. I blame that on a brief but intense period of happiness and optimism just about then. This is the comedown.
I know depression is boring, but it does lead to excessive amounts of introspection of which I feel I should say something. I think that perhaps depression is the reason I’ve always been so bloody lazy, escapist and under-achieving — doing otherwise would mean confronting the blues which is not something I’ve ever really been able to do.
Yeah, by now I’m talking to myself. Besides, I got to go soon.
My gods, this post is depressing…! I wouldn’t bother commenting if I were you, it would only encourage this sort of thing.
