Just Another Fish

So I shall. I’m very obedient :)

I’m not very good at blogging, for the same reason I’m not very good at phoning people and keeping in contact in general. Talking about things that have happened is hard! Some people seem to go through life storing up all the things that have happened, ready to chat about them. And some people are able to have a conversation about pretty much anything. I have no idea how they do it.

For me, time passes and doesn’t leave much of a mark; today seems much the same as yesterday, months go by and merge into each other. I don’t remember much of it. So, if any of my family are reading this (though I don’t think they do) this is the reason I’m so lame. I feel more than a little embarassed at having left it so long but unable to think of anything to say that seems like it’ll make up up for the wait. A gap of a year will result in the same amount of chatting and catching-up as a week. I’m just as bad with money; it slips through my hands without me being very aware of it.

So… I shall try very hard and think of something to say!

I am still hoping to get on to the PhD at Bristol University, and should know what’s happening within 2 weeks; at the moment, the potential superviosr doesn’t know if he’ll have enough time next year.

I’m still unsure what to do should that not pan out - I suppose I will finally have to go and get a career. Probably in computing, which is a little depressing. Still, the thought of having money is not unpleasant. I’ve not had much of that lately….

Speaking of growing up, I might have to bite some bullets and stop being a coward when it comes to women. And possibly tidy my room.

In exciting news, I won a couple of tickets to see The Longcut’s album launch party on Tuesday. I owe Pete more than a few gigs but he thinks I should invite on of the girls I like. I have my doubts that this — ah, but did I not just say I should stop being a coward?

Is it brave to do something you know will fail?

Perhaps pessimism is something I need to be looking at too…. (Although how do you tell it from realism? Perhaps I’ve just got to sod it and not care.)

This has turned out to be a far more emo entry than I intended!